I sometimes let things control my life that I shouldn’t. I get swept away by emotions and my own insecurities.
At times I tend to give into the fear:
the fear of judgment,
the fear of rejection,
or even the fear of failing.
But today I let go put my faith in you.
Because without you, I might drown.
It was a rough morning, my little darling woke up saying that her throat was a bit sore, and with the scare of the swine flu, the school nurse had asked the children to stay home if they felt sick. Of course if you tell this to a bunch of 2nd graders, all the hear is “stay home.” I knew that with her, it was allergies. I asked her if she felt like she could tough it out today, and she said that she would try.
I really wanted her to go to school today, because today was the beginning of my first Bible Study. We are studying “Because of Jesus” by Connie Witter. I will confess that doing a bible study is a little out of my comfort zone. Sometimes I feel like I am not the stereotypical perfect christian woman. But we all have our own shortcomings, right.
My sweet girl went to school, and I was able to go. I went to drop my son off at the day school, and they could not find him on the list. He was not registered. They reassured me that is wouldn’t be a problem, and showed us to our room.
Many of the other women had known each other for other studies that they had done before. I sat alone. Now, I know what you are thinking…
I am the GYPSY CHICK, you love to wonder around alone, and discover. And you are right. I do. But sometimes it is nice to have a friend on your journey.
Just then, a friend sat beside me. She is going to lead the group. I was excited, but now there is absolutely no way that I can quit. She knows where I live…